8-8-07
Its been 5 months today since our Angel was called home to live eternity with Jesus. Although we miss him more than anything in this world, we know that he is in a much better place and will never hurt again. Christopher's passing has affected our lives more than words can explain. We will never get over loosing such a wonderful child. It hurts us so much, not only that his life was taken to soon but the way he was taken. No child should ever have to endure the kind of pain that our Christopher did. I pray every day that God took him early before the Edenfields actually took his life. I hate to think that he was present during the awful acts that was committed upon him. I know that he is safe now and heaven must be a much brighter place now that he is there. I look forward to the day when I am called home and can see his beautiful smile again.
I think a lot of parents take their time with their children for granted. We always think that we're going to have another day with our child to hug them, kiss them, tell them how much we love them. Then before we know it, that next day is no more and all you have left is memories of doing that. When people see awful things happening to other children, they think "well that will never happen to my child" Guess what? We thought that very same thing. We never in a million years thought that anything so horrible would ever happen to one of our children. Then the unthinkable happens and our world comes crashing down around us. Our world is now changed forever. We will never get to look into Christopher's eyes and tell him how much we love him, never be able to tuck him into bed, wake him up for school, see him graduate high school, get married, have kids....nothing. Those days are no more.
I would do ANYTHING to turn back time and change the things that happened or at least be able to have just one more day with him, to let him know that even though I was not his birth mother I still loved him just as much as if I was. Let him know just how much it meant to me for him to be apart of my life and how much he has changed me. No matter what, in my heart...Christopher will ALWAYS be my son, my child, my angel. I will spend the rest of my life doing what ever I have to do to keep his memory alive. Christopher will always be our super hero.
God Bless you sweet Angel. You will never be forgotten.
Gone from our arms but never from our hearts.
*Before you leave, please take the time to light a candle in Christopher's memory.*
Before you light a candle for Christopher, please go to where ever you child is at and give them a great big hug and kiss and tell them how much you love them and what they mean to you. You never know what could happen in the next minute.
God Bless,
Paula
